Twenty has been a weird year for me. God has opened up some incredible doors for me as with my job, and the company I work with, and I honestly feel like I'm growing up ((or as close to growing up as a Hello Kitty and Unicorn obsessed twenty year old can get)) but I also feel like I'm a little sucked in to the "what's next?" band wagon as everyone else. I feel like I'm playing this waiting game, just waiting for the next big thing in my life to happen, and my problem is that I've been trying to figure it out alone. I've let everyone else's hopes for my future be my agent of fuel and motivation, rather than listening to what the Lord is desiring for my future. I've prayed and asked God for His direction, but never heard a thing, until today. I read a scripture this morning, it caught my eye, I read it again, and then went on with my day. But I haven't been able to get it out of my head, and then I knew God must be trying to tell me something. Here's the verse: "Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." Proverbs 19:21.
I have realized that it is not my right, nor Cody's right, or any person we knows right to determine, decide, or desire when we get married ((heck, he might come to his senses and ditch me for good)).
The Lord, HE is the One who gets to decide. HIS plan is the one that will unfold, and that I needed to let go of what everyone else wants, what everyone else says, what I want, and just let God be God.
Whether we get married a year from now, or ten years from now, I choose to wait on God's timing. I choose to celebrate the "now" and let God plan the "next". You don't know best, I certainly don't know best, but the God I serve certainly does, and as a girl who has been dreaming of her wedding day for as long as I can remember, what could be greater than that?
